My heart was beating so hard in my chest and I thought everyone around me could hear the thumping sound.. It was a long time since I flirted a girl. I was taken aback by the never-ending gossips that will be traveling across the school but the courage beneath overcame the fear in me.. Initially, I had no intention of wanting a letter written, but well, if a girl wants to write a letter to you, why not? The cocky side of me thought.. Continuing the hearty conversation, I portrayed myself as what most girls will fancy on.. Well I used the inevitable expression ':')' to show that actually I'm so fucking touched till no tomorrow but I'm just typing it with a poker face. :P. Not surprised, she replied what a typical a girl will write. 'haha hmmmmm must consider first XD' Well I can infer that this girl is quite flirty in the sense that she makes me to have chance to know her more( the fact that she mentioned me too) . OK... At first I thought she will be quite a hassle to prey on but she's one of the easiest Pokemon probably a margikarp? Splash all around like my c _ m . Hahahahaha I replied cheekily as normal but she just shut me down on the floor by ending the conversation... ... ... I was too complacent.. Never mind.. To salvage my reputation(even though it's gone) I shall not continue to womanize and anticipate the letter she'll be giving me... ;)

Happy birthday to me! Officially 16 :). Thanks so much for those that remembered my birthday despite me hiding my birthday :p well it is the first time I'm publishing a blog entry from my phone thus I realize that I can't fucking paragraph what I want to write which made it look like a chunk of trash. Anyway.... I'm thrilled when I received a message from someone..it's someone that impacted my life so much... It's non other than... .. ~HER~. Well I read the text as though it was a long essay but it really is kind of long LOL. I'm fucking excited when I'm writing and I don't know why, because I'm typing so fast that I'm amazed oh whatever. The Avengers are curious about what the content was but i was reluctant to show them because I said so but I think in the end I will show? I think hahahahaha. Hmm, I realize that this year's birthday was relatively different.. Why do I say that.. Hmm because on the past birthdays I had... I remembered when I was in secondary 2, it was the year where i received the most birthday present because of the main reason (too handsome) and I'm always talking to girls?!? I think .. And on secondary three, someone actually baked for me.. Omg that's an achievement unlock ok, imagine someone baking for you and you'll be like wtf you're so sweet... Anyway as you can see, the expectation of my birthday will naturally higher... But I'm contented :) because I have good friends that wished me, that's all I asked! Anyway I received one piece or one ball or 一粒 sweet and a bottle of green tea from Liwei, and a great football buddy of mine - Karthik which bought me Planet Cola!!!! :) thanks to them! ^^ surprisingly it was all m a l e . Weird... Hahahahaha. Anyway many people skipped school, because they wanted to prepare my birthday present (fake). Okay it's time for me to sleep , 19 mins more to the end of my birthday! Good night! :)

Time flies, I am now 16 in fifteen minutes time. Memories re-winded like a recording tape while I recalled my wonderful memories that I had over the past 4 years in secondary school. In a nutshell, I can truthfully tell you that, 'Greed makes one regret upon recalling'

Definitely, in the four years, there were times that were bad, tough, embarrassing,heartbreaking. Well not forgetting the positive ones.. honorable,respected,romance,joy..

Oh ya, I would like to mention some friends of mine which been through thick and thin with me since Secondary 1. They are, Daryl, Kenneth, Sze kiat, Gerald, Yuan kiat. As you know, they are mainly from the same CCA as I am, which is BASKETBALL

It's surprising how a ball could make us bond together as one. It made us to think that we are not alone in this sport. In Secondary 1, only
Zhewei went for the Malaysia Training Camp. The main reason was we are not interested in this sport..
Well, we soon found our love for basketball in Secondary 2. We motivated one another to continue to persevere to achieve our goal. To motivate one another to endure in trainings.. Laughter we had during trainings.. And not forgetting being the 'joke' :P . Well it was all too memorable.. :)

In life, It is unavoidable to have a life without any troubles..

To be truth, I am really shocked and loss for words upon looking back the past blog entries that were in my blog.. It made me reflected hard on myself, why am I such a jerk? why am I such a two-timer?
why do I make mistakes over and over again? why wont I learn?

Countless type and amount of questions struck me whenever I think of the heartbreaking incidents I did. Not once, but TWICE...
Please please do not follow my footsteps and I wish to be the last one that is a heartbreaker..

Friends stands by you but TRUE friends stands with you. In the end, we all make decisions for ourselves for our future.

'The future lies on your hands' Happy 16th birthday Ben!